Committed to Change & Feeling FREE!
Committed to change sounds so ominous without context. What kind of change exactly? For me change lately has been running rampant everywhere. It seems when I've thought I've got something figured out it, well, changes. I can't say for sure it's a bad thing but it can make it hard when you're trying to launch a business. I finally feel like I'm really starting to get that side of me nailed down but never say never right!.
When you're on a spiritual and personal journey change can happen often and I'm no stranger to it. Honestly I think it's what I like best about life. It's a constant ebb and flow and ever changing. There may be a time when I really lock myself in to something but for now as it relates to my business and me I'm going to go with the flow. I want to feel FREE and for me that looks like changing direction when I feel like I need to and right now I'm changing the direction of me.
The change of direction regarding me, myself, is related to the title of this post. I'm committing myself to change. It's a change of direction because lately I have put my physical and internal health on the back burner. This is not something I ever recommend but for me it happened and I'm not proud of it. I'm not at my ideal anything right now and it fucking sucks and I'm over it. I'm over feeling like shit! Feeling like shit does not feel FREE!
What does this mean exactly? Well it means I'm committing right now to making changes to live a healthier life. I started today with a meditation which led me to this decision. The truth is I want to get back to how healthy I felt a few years ago. I felt so good and I was eating great and exercising regularly. I want to get back to that girl. And now it's even better because I'm a mom! I can show Ethan what it means to live a healthy life. I'm not giving up my wine though...yet. Because I mean wine and parenting kind of go together for me right now lol! That and coffee! I am not giving up coffee but I will be giving up the flavored lattes at Starbucks because man the calories are insane and the amount of sugar is ridiculous!
Here it is, my online and public declaration of my commitment to myself to changing my lifestyle. I know I can do this. I've done it before! The only difference this time is I'm a mom to a toddler. I know my biggest struggle will be emotional eating of junk food. If you have suggestions on how to avoid that I'm all ears! I'll be joining the YMCA too to help me on the fitness side and I get 2 hours of childcare with each visit so I can focus on self-care and if I have time maybe a little work in.
Wish me luck and I'll be posting pretty regularly updates here about my journey to help keep myself accountable.